In the face of adversity, there is beauty and there is strength.
These words have never rang more clearly to me than in these last eight weeks. On July 31st, I arrived home from my two-month journey traveling and teaching English in Europe. My best friend was arriving in just a few short days and we were to embark on a three-week road trip up the East Coast into Canada. She arrived, and before I knew it, I was on the road once again…a place where I felt free, where I felt comfortable, where my heart was happy. In the midst of traveling, I started having stomach pains. I dismissed them thinking that they were related to traveling and would go away once I got back to a “normal routine” (whatever that is when you’re drawn to living on the road).
Three weeks passed, and the pains persisted. Two months later, after visiting different doctors, I stand in my childhood home in New Jersey awaiting an answer. Did I eat or drink something contaminated? Did I catch a virus from traveling? Did I have this illness before I left? Amidst these questions, I was also faced with the uncertainty of figuring out the next chapter of my life. Where was I going to live? What job was I going to do? Was I going to leave everything behind and pursue the dreams I had dreamt throughout college?
I don’t need to know the answers to all of these questions right now. I don’t need to know what the future holds because I trust in God and that in due time, all will heal and be revealed to me. I will do what I’m supposed to be doing and the experiences I’m having now will shape where I’ll be in the future. Where there is adversity and uncertainty, there will always be beauty and strength, and I know I will take that beauty and strength with me wherever I may go.
Written by my dear friend with words that inspired this post, “Know that in the cracks, the brokenness, and the uncertainty of your heart, life is growing and a garden is forming.” You are beautiful and you are strong. Keep going.