World Pancreatic Cancer Day – My “Why”

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On November 16, 2014, I found out that my beloved brother was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer. I knew from that day forward, my life would never be the same. I had just moved into college and was struggling with the adjustment. My brother would always call or text me asking, “Are you okay?”. Little did I know this would become the most important question I would ask him over the course of the next 21 months as he bravely fought for his life. During these grueling months, my eyes were opened to what I pray no one will ever have to experience. I saw my brother suffer more than anyone should have to suffer. I sat by his side as he cringed in pain from simple movements that I took for granted. I watched his poor body change as the cancer inside him took over. I held his fragile, yet strong hand as he breathed his last breath on July 27, 2016. 
In those 21 months, my brother taught me the very meaning of, “We cannot change the cards we are dealt, just how we play them”. Boy, did my brother play them. Shortly before his passing, he told one of my family members that the past few months were the best months of his life. They were the best because he didn’t let pancreatic cancer win. Instead, he lived life the best he could each and every day. He gained a new sense of gratitude for every person in his life. He saw beauty in the little things in life, in the sunrises and the sunsets. He was happy.
I hate this cancer, I hate what it did to my brother, and I hate that it took him away from me. But, I love that my beautiful brother is at peace, watching over me each and ever day. I love that he allowed me to grow into the person I am today. I love the community that he allowed me to be a part of at Project Purple. I love that I now have a promise to fight for a cure and keep my brother’s memory alive as long as I live. Most importantly. I love that I will life this life to the best I can possibly live it, just as my brother did. To my angel in heaven, I love you forever. 
In Loving Memory of the “Best Guy Ever”